Food Is Love

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

November 22

I know its been a long time, and I feel a little bad about that. Just so much going on. I went to London for a weekend, and then this weekend I went to Paris. In London my girlfriend gave me Adderall, which is supposed to be a drug for attention deficit disorder, helps you concentrate and whatnot... but it also reduces your appetite. She gave me like 40 and so I havent been eating a lot. It has some side affects, mostly just my stomach making weird noises trying to digest nothing! Paris was cool bc i didnt eat all day, and then I didnt feel guilty about drinking wine and eating pizza or cheese or bread or whatever. The medicine just gives you energy to do the stuff you need to do, but you just... arent hungry. But i dont think its a good idea not to eat at all... after London I couldnt run because I was just so tired. I would get really dizzy, and I took a break until after Paris. Today was my first day back. I walked 5 minutes, ran 10, walked 7, ran 10 (with a 1 min break bc i was really tired) and then walked 8... It was a good start... I weighed myself too... lost a few pounds, but I cant really figure out the scales because its in KGs.... I know its not that much though, because stones are on the scale too, and Im not down past 9 yet... or anywhere near :( Keep working!!!!!

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

November 8

I have been exercising every single day. Like when I say every single day, I mean ive missed 1 in the last 2 weeks. Ive started this new running program. Im not a very good runner bc I get that side stich thing really quickly then I give up... but i found in this fitness magazine a program for beginners and Im in my second week and am doing really well. On the days it says to take off I go to the gym and do something else. Today I did the elliptical and walked on an incline. The problem is.... ive been gaining weight. I mean, not like a ton, like 3 lbs... but still, it sucks because I cant say its muscle since I havent been weight training, and so it must be my food intake. Which I DO try to keep low... I eat a grape fruit or a banana or yogurt for breakfast and lunch. Then I guess its dinner thats doing it to me, because I keep getting invited out or over to other people's and I want their attention, but I dont want to eat their food. But I do anyway... and I drink too... and feel guilty about it. Tonight I have offered to cook dinner for Evan Jordan and Rachel. I was thinking about making chicken parm... but in a healthy way. I dont even know if I want that. I might have a grapefruit and some yogurt and just say i was really hungry earlier and ate then... I dont know what to do... self discipline would be nice.

Monday, November 06, 2006

November 6

Something is wrong with me. I havent been caring as much. I mean, Ive been thinking about the food I eat, but not to the extent of constantly thinking about it, obsessing about it. I dont want to obsess, but I feel like if I dont I have nothing. Like for instance, yesterday my cousin gave me some peanut M and Ms. I didnt eat them I put them in the car, but when I got in later, they were there, and I 'didnt want to be rude' so i had the whole pack. Thats like 300 cals. And then I was too lazy to get my ass up to the gym, so by the time I got there it was closing in 25 minutes. Regardless I just hate the way Ive 'let myself go.' I need a kick in the ass. At the grocery store I bought fruit and frozen vegetables. I also have some chicken in the freezer and soup in my cupboard. That is all I will eat for this week... except for dinner on Tuesday with Greg.

Breakfast- Banana, Water
Lunch- Whole Grapefruit, Coffee/Coke, Apple
Dinner- 1/2 can vegetable soup, Half Chicken Breast, 1/2 cup veggies

That is exactly 600 calories. Lets see how this goes.
Im also going to the gym today and working out on the tredmill.. but first i must study! off to the library.